Rona VA-1-G FPE

HISTORY

THE SEARCH FOR SELF

About the age of seven I seemed to be drawn to crafts like sewing, weaving, knitting and cooking. I also was getting to like to wear dresses but had to wait until Halloween. As my younger sister grew there was a short time that her clothing did fit me and I did try on and wear her clothing whenever I could be alone.

I do not remember anything much until I reached 13 when we had a play to do for a P.T.A. meeting (A Womanless Wedding) and I was a bridesmaid. If I ever liked dressing up before I loved it now but there still was not much chance.

Seventeen and I started dating and forgot about my problem and got married at the age of eighteen. After about one year of marriage I could not withhold my desires any longer but there was too much difference in sizes to wear her things and I could not afford to buy dresses for myself anyway. At the age of 23 I started buying very cheap dresses and under things.

Well my wife did not understand and I could not explain, except that I liked the clothes and was going to wear them when I could. For the next three years there were threats, getting rid of clothes, and finding I could not withdraw, starting all over again.

For several years I tried to work out some excuse or reason for wearing dresses. Nothing seemed to work for very long and we were back to fussing.

I was not going to get rid of my clothes again and as more and more were added, things kept getting worse but there were some good

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